14th May

yesterday my cats were taken! actually it was my uncle who took them. he wanted to help me send my cats to sterilise this morning. oh god...what i have feared most is coming true. the vet is going to tip-off one of their ears. i don't like this at all! but my aunt convinced me if i don't let the vet tip-off their ears, the AVA will catch them and either kill them or feed them to the zoo's tigers. why must this happen? why must people kill to control? why is it that humans are cruel? i want to keep my cats the way it was born to be. i want them to look like a cat, to live like a cat. but my vanity, not love will eventually cause even more cruelty. why is it that i am cruel? to stick onto my belief, i have become a selfish and irresponsible owner that don't deserve them. yet going against them is going to proof everything that i'm am to not what i am? what can i say? but that what has to be done, has to be done. there's no way i can protect them if i don't sterilise them. i've lost to this cruel world full of crapppp! luckily i finished 2 exams papers yesterday, if not i'm will definitely explode. thank god! ME and PBF is over!